I've been exhausted and cranky and wallowing in self-pity. In fact, this afternoon, I called Jared while he was out playing disc golf and pretty much let him have it for leaving me alone with 2 kids. He (in his wonderful way) immediately left and came home so I could take a nap. When Kie woke up crying he took him on a drive so I could rest. However, God didn't allow me to go back to sleep. Instead, I came downstairs and spent some quality time with Him. I wouldn't usually post exactly what God shared with me but I believe it was a divine appointment with me & God and I couldn't not share it. I'm simply going to share exactly what I wrote in my journal from what I read.
In 1 Chronicles 1:9-16, David revealed his desire to trust God for ultimate control. We say God is in control. We sing songs about trusting Him, but what a difference in the person who lives like God is the source and sustainer. In spite of full lives, somehow they still seem at rest. They aren't exhausted from a life filled with anxiety as they seem to control people and events. They are also not frustrated when things don't go as they had hoped. They are satisfied with the rewards of obeying God and rest easy knowing that the outcome was given and allowed by a God who loves them and has their best interest in mind.
I think I do this about the BIG things in my life but I struggle with little, everyday details.
George Muller said, "The beginning of anxiety is the end of faith. The beginning of true faith is the end of anxiety" Our anxiety always stems from a desire to control and indicates that we have ceased to trust the Lord. When we are depending on the Lord to hand the people and circumstances in our lives, the outcome will be an existence virtually free from worry, anxiety and fear.
Matthew 6:30-32 NLT says
"And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith? So don't worry about these things saying, 'What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?' these things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs"